repeat

my heart, my heart,
dream. fly.
then repeat.

did you?

did you really see a forever?

when together

family.
different.
but when together,
nice.

pride

in feeling sorry for myself.
in not getting up and fight.
in saying He doesn't care.
in believing pain is my destiny.

pride. a hole dug with tears.
pride. the wind that steals and exaggerates.

"Empty me
of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So i can be filled with You"
- Chris Sligh

can i be real?

dear Lord, don't tell me.
please don't command me to love.

don't tell me i must, just as You have loved me.

right now, i just can't.
i'd rather drown and be defeated.
and i wanna be okay with it.

i hate this.